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I am going to the desert for a few days with some friends.  I’m taking my cell phone but it will be off.  I’ll be back Saturday late and I’ll return y’alls calls then.

Not that y’all really call me that often… but one time I went to Mexico for a week without telling my family and they couldn’t get a hold of me and they got scared.  Sorry about that.

What I’m doing

I posted recently about how my blog seems to tend towards the negative.  This is one of the reasons why my parents are continually worried about my happiness, despite the fact that I think I’m as happy or happier than I’ve ever been.  I’ve also talked with my mom about how she doesn’t really get to see the little things that happen to me day to day, because we don’t talk that frequently.

One of the solutions to this is just to talk more often, possibly for shorter conversations.  My sister and I have been working on that.  But I thought another thing that might help is “microblogging”.

Microblogging was originally for keeping activity logs (”I’m going to take a shower”, “I just found a snickers bar in the couch”, etc).  It’s since been used for bookmarking streams, news feeds, and a variety of other creative social purposes.  But I’m going to use my microblog to keep track of things that happen to me that I think are worth noting, but not worth blogging about.

For now I’m keeping it on Twitter:

http://twitter.com/erikpukinskis

Larnin’

I learned from Gramma…

Reading the paper is wonderful. It’s a big world, and what is better than talking politics in the morning with people you love?

I learned from my Mom…

Veganism is not a magic bullet. There are hard tradeoffs between being a steward of the environment, of our bodies, of our society, and of our animal friends.

I learned from my Dad…

Flashing needs to go up and over the bottom plate, and should NOT extend out under outdoor decking.

I learned from Emily…

Eating raw isn’t just about not cooking things, it’s about appreciating raw ingredients. And your gut can tell you a lot about what you need to eat.

I learned from Patrick…

Doing projects is awesome, and all you have to do is keep doing stuff you love.

I learned from Wendy…

It’s ok for me to struggle and grapple and scramble. Not everyone is a cucumber.

Sixth figure

Kate’s and my dance video we recorded over Christmas recently topped 100,000 views. 278 people say it’s one of the favorite videos. Go figure.

It’s also nice to see that the video Camille and I made a couple weeks ago has been rated three times, and so far has a perfect 5-star rating. Surely the haters will be getting involved soon?

Vegan Test Kitchen: Pancakes

I’m back home in Ithaca, NY spending some quality time with my family. First order of business: create the perfect vegan pancake!

Splatter

We made 20 different recipes of pancake, varying basic proportions, auditioning potential “secret” ingredients, and having a gay old time. Here are our findings, with the final recipe at the bottom. And yes, there were spreadsheets involved.

Oil vs. Earth Balance

We tried both, multiple times, and the difference was one of the most striking of the afternoon. Canola oil pancakes taste like crap, and Earth Balance pancakes are delicious. Don’t use canola oil, period. Other oils, like coconut, might work, but we didn’t try them. Let us know if you try something else and it works out.

Cutting the fat

Melting down your earth balance and mixing it into the dry ingredients provides a good flavor, but if you want a really amazing texture, just spoon the cold earth balance right into the dry stuff, and then “cut” it in. Traditionally, cutting fat into a flour mix is done with two knives, but we found that just squishing the earth into the flour worked great. Squish until you get a relatively homogeneous crumbly mixture.

Earth balance, cut into the flour

It should be noted that you can make a pretty good pancake with no fat besides what is naturally in the banana and what you use to fry it. Not quite decadent, but certainly delicious.

Rising action

Recipes on the web vary wildly in the amount of baking powder they recommend, from less than a teaspoon per cup to up to two tablespoons (6 teaspoons) per cup. We found that for white flour, about one tablespoon of baking powder per cup of flour works well, yielding an extremely fluffy pancake with only a slight baking powder taste, which can be masked by other flavors.

A proper pancake is fluffy and dome-shaped

A good fluffy pancake will actually visibly puff up when you flip it over, yielding a lovely dome shape like the one you see in the photo. Going down to two teaspoons per cup of flour yielded a soggier, denser pancake.

For whole wheat flour, we upped it to 4 teaspoons of baking powder per cup of flour. Whole wheat flour is less fluffy to begin with, so you might want to compensate.

We also tried using half baking powder, half baking soda, since we’d seen that on a few recipes, but that only seemed to create a nasty pretzel pancake thing. It certainly didn’t improve the leavening action.

The glue

Traditional pancakes have eggs, which not only provide protein, flavor and leavening (rising), they act as the glue that binds everything together. We found that the best way to achieve a great fluffy pancake that isn’t too crumbly was to add two teaspoons of mushed banana for every cup of flour, and if you’re using whole wheat flour, to add in an additional 1/2 teaspoon of corn starch (or any other starch) to provide additional binding. The banana taste is noticeable, but it works well with syrups and other fruits, and the texture is just great.

Trying whole wheat.  Needs something else to hold it together.

Egg replacers like Ener-G work too, but they are are basically just starch, baking powder, and flour. You’ve already got baking powder and flour in your pancake recipe, so all you’re really doing is adding some potato starch or something. We’re pretty sure in the case of pancakes, corn starch and Ener-G will be basically equivalent. That said, we didn’t spend the money on a huge box of the stuff just so we could try it out. Let us know if you do.

Wetness

The wetness of the batter makes a huge difference in the quality of the pancake. Too much liquid, and your pancake will be dense and thin. Too little liquid and the pancake will be thick and dry. You’ve got to be like Goldilocks and find the porridge that’s just right.

The correct amount of liquid seems to be about the same as the amount of flour. One cup flour, one cup water. However, you might need a little less if you are adding banana or applesauce. We recommend adding the liquid slowly, whilst stirring, and monitoring the consistency carefully. You want a batter that will spread out to a round puddle about 1/4″ thick. If you tip the bowl, such a batter will slide freely and quickly off the walls of the bowl, leaving a thin layer of batter behind, but there should be some batter that slides down the bottom of the wall more slowly.

Bananas and apple and yams, oh my!

As we mentioned above, we really like what bananas do for vegan pancakes, especially the whole wheat ones. But we also tried adding applesauce and mushed cooked yams (in both cases, 2 teaspoons per cup of flour). The applesauce pancakes were good, but you sort of lose that wheaty pancake taste. I’d rather have regular pancakes with a sweet, cinnamon apple topping.

The yam pancakes were very good. If you want a heartier, more filling pancake that’s still sweet and fluffy, this is the pancake for you. Just microwave, bake, or boil the yam until it is soft, and then mash it with a fork. After you’ve cut the earth balance into the dry ingredients, add the yam and knead it into a dry dough. Then add water slowly until you get the right batter consistency.

Cooked yams!

Got milk?

Many vegan pancake recipes suggest using soy milk or other alternative milks. We tried both soy and oat milk, and it didn’t seem to matter. Water was just as tasty. Unless you really want the 1/4 gram of protein, you might as well save your money and use water.

Salt ‘n Suga’

Added salt seems unnecessary. Baking powder is already a little salty. We did like the sweetness a little sugar imparts, especially in the whole wheat pancakes which are prone to blandness, but if you’re using a banana you can get away without using sugar.

The Recipe

Getting close to the end. I think this was the one with the melted Earth Balance.

Proto-Ultimate Vegan Pancakes

(Makes 12 eight-inch pancakes)

These are the result of strenuous testing, but we’re open to suggestions for improvement. Post a comment if you think you’ve got a variation that beats these.

  • 3 cups flour (white works well, but half whole wheat, half barley is a delicious alternative)
  • 1/4 cup sugar
  • 4 Tbsp baking powder
  • 2 Tbsp corn starch (if using whole wheat flour)
  • 1/4 cup Earth Balance, plus 1/8 cup for frying
  • 1 banana, mashed
  • 3 cups or less water

Mix the dry ingredients in a large bowl. Add 1/4 cup cold Earth Balance, and cut it into the mixture using your fingers. When the mixture is uniformly crumbly, add the mashed banana and knead it in. Put a large, flat bottom skillet or griddle on medium-high heat. It’s hot enough when water dribbled on the pan sizzles. Add the water to the banana mix slowly, until the desired consistency is reached. (See “Wetness” above). For each pancake, put about 1/2 teaspoon of Earth Balance in the middle of the pan. When it has melted, pour 1/2 cup of batter slowly into the center of the Earth Balance puddle. When the bottom of the pancake is browned, but the top is still wet, flip it. When the other side is browned, which will take less time, remove it from the heat.

Serve immediately! Don’t stack pancakes in the oven, put them on a plate and tell someone to start eating. The crispy, fluffy texture is best fresh off the griddle.

Variations: Substitute cooked, mashed yam for the banana. Make sure you incorporate the yam with the flour well before adding liquid. Or, add applesauce, cinnamon, and nutmeg for an apple pie taste.

Open Questions

Even after an afternoon of pancakery, there are still some things we didn’t get to test; some questions left unanswered. Like, since most baking powder is double-acting, would it make sense to let the batter sit and froth up, and then gently ladle it onto the pan for a second rise? If we did that, could we get away with less baking powder? And, my mom informed me last night that baking powder needs an acidic environment to react. Should we try adding some lemon juice or vinegar with the baking powder? And what about that no-fat-inside pancake? Was it really that good? What would vanilla add to the flavor, and exactly what happens when you cook a pancake on lower heat for longer? What about the liquid/flour proportions? Do you really need to eyeball it every time you make the batter, or can we construct a recipe that Just. Works. Every. Time? Katt says corn oil tastes great… what other oils work well, and how do they stand up to venerable Earth Balance?

Lots of questions. Perhaps a second edition of pancake VTK is needed.

Daudz baltu dieniņu

Latvian birthday cake

Today is my little sister’s birthday, and we’re celebrating here in Boulder, Colorado with my brother and sister in law. Dad mailed out a kliņģeris, the eggy saffron-flavored traditional Latvian birthday cake.

We sang Daudz baltu dieninu:

Daudz baltu dieniņu Laimiņa lemi,
Diženi, raženi dzīvojoti!
Diženi, raženi dzīvojoti!
Daudz baltu dieniņu Laimiņa, lemi,
Diženi, raženi strādājoti!
Diženi, raženi strādājoti!
Daudz baltu dieniņu Laimiņa, lemi,
Diženi, raženi mīlējoti!
Diženi, raženi mīlējoti!

“Many happy days, luck be yours, great bountiful living!”

Academic Dishonesty

I just read a shocking blog post on the Science Matters blog about shocking study done in 1995, showing that in despite the fact that 46% of the 114 applicants for 20 Swedish medical post-doc positions, only four women won positions, compared to 16 men. From the blog:

“Being female was a major liability: a candidate would need to have 3 extra articles in Nature or Science (or 20 in decent specialist journals) just to counteract the disadvantages she faced for being a woman. There were two women in the pool so prolific that they won post-doc jobs this way, but for most good female scientists there was only one hope for getting a position: knowing someone on the review committee”

I can only think of three explanations. It’s possible that the hiring process has a sexist bias. It’s also possible that academia systematically oppresses women, making it more difficult for them to prepare themselves for post doctorate work. And it’s possible that our culture systematically fails to provide equal preparation to men and women for doctorate work. But it’s probably a combination of all three.

Which just confirms in my mind that all the women I know who are either in grad school (Wendy, Camille, Lauren, Chantel, Brynn and other ladies in my cohort, Erica, Andrea, Ally, Amanda, Allison, Julia, Marisa, Vasu, Anne, Kerry and Gina) have graduate degrees (my mom, Mel, Emily, Kynthia, Tiffanie, Jackie, Kristy, Schweta, Kaya, Amaya, Monal, Shaowen, Kim, Marisa, Erin, Carol, Jen, Christy, and all my other women colleagues), or are grad school bound (my sister, Lilly, Katt, Jen, Lucy)…

…are all even more badass in my mind than they were an hour ago.

(who did I forget?)

Spring Break

I don’t want to set up a vacation email auto-responder thing so I’ll just mention it here: I’m going to be in Switzerland from now until the 2nd. I probably won’t respond to email.

HOWEVER,

If you send me an email soonish, and you include your mailing address, I’ll send you a postcard.

I see Kate in two days!!

Smorgasbord

Dinner Co-op is buzzing along. Kensy made some awesome chili on Thursday. Camille and I are going to cook lasagna tomorrow night. We’re getting 10-12 people showing up each night, which is a good number. There are a couple issues that are hard to navigate… one is that I want the co-op to be a neighborhood event, but I also want to invite all my cogsci friends, and they don’t live in the neighborhood. The whole point is to have a quick, easy, local gathering, but inviting people down from La Jolla makes it more of a production.

But it’s been awesome having the energy of people coming down from La Jolla. And hopefully they can then form the core of a dinner co-op up there. So I think I’ll just continue the policy of inviting La Jolla folks who show an interest in cooperative eating, which has worked well so far. The other issue is that dinner co-op inevitably turns into dinner party. There’s wine, there’s friends, there’s good conversation… people want to stay and soak in all of that. But again, the original purpose was for it to be a low-committment, convenient neighborhood gathering to eat. So keeping it less party-ish is a good idea.

But I think Kensy had the right idea… he suggested that Thursday nights could be more partyish and Tuesday could be more in-and-out. And as the thing expands to more days and locations, I think a sort of party gradient would emerge.

In other news, I can’t find my camera. It might be hiding somewhere in my room, but it’s not in any of the usual places. So, things which I would post pictures of, if I had not lost my camera:

  • My face, which looks like it was in a bar brawl, but was actually in a collision with the ocean floor whilst surfing at Ocean Beach on Saturday. If only I could stay on my board…
  • Our food box, which contained all manner of goodies: several avocados, oranges, tangerines, one very large lemon, yellow chard, rappini, spinach, garlic, baby bok choy, apples, red butter lettuce, and of course one succulent cherimoya. It’s a feast for the eyes, and a feast for the pallette. And the cherimoya gives Kensy, Kaya and I an excuse to get together during the week (as soon as it’s perfectly ripe!) to feast on juicy custardy goodness. For late-lunch I just ate a red butter lettuce salad with avocado, walnuts, raisins and homemade sweet wheat croutons I baked this morning.For those who don’t know… I learned about the concept of a food box from my big brother, who was doing it in Boulder, I think. Also known as Community Supported Agriculture (CSA), the way it works is that you sign up for a weekly delivery of produce from a local farm. You don’t choose the contents, you just get whatever’s in season. You pay a weekly amount (in our case it’s $30/week split between three people). It’s awesome. You get more variety in your diet, you support local commerce, you conserve fuel (the food gets to my house via my bicycle), and you get fresh, delicious, organic produce for a good price. And these programs are everywhere! Here’s a database where you can search for one near you.

    But back to the missed photos…

  • Kensy and I, decked out for Gabby’s 80’s prom party on Saturday. We were stylin’.
  • The self-portrait I painted on my new canvas bag during Gender Buffet at the women’s center on Friday. The flyer said there was going to be discussion of “self-identity, self-worth and lovin’ yo self!” and there was.
  • The new DCog/HCI Lab weekly yoga group, which consists of about six students in my lab. This was Amaya’s awesome idea: each week after lab meeting, several of us do yoga together with the aid of an awesome yoga podcast that Amaya found. So fun.

Anyway, these images are forever lost to the march of time. I wonder how long I’ll last before I break down and drop another $300 on a camera.

And one other note… This weekend I’m performing Beethoven’s Ninth with the La Jolla Sympony Chorus. If you’re in San Diego and want to see it cheap, contact me and I’ll tell you about the free, open-to-the-public dress rehearsal on Friday.

Photo Update

My computer is not importing photos lately, so I always end up saving them up and then posting them all at once from school. And then I have to write a big, rambly blog entry. But whatever.

Last week it was Kaya’s birthday and I made Falafel for her birthday dinner. Everything from scratch: fresh Falafel, fresh pitas, tahini sauce, tzadziki sauce, plus fresh tomatoes, lettuce, and onions. Pretty much the same recipe as we made at Emily’s in Cambridge, except that this time Kensy brough his special favorite yoghurt. The photos sort of speak for themselves, but it was really tasty, and I think Kaya was really happy that we did something special for her, and I was really happy to see her smiling.

Leo likes his falafel Anna likes her falafel Kaya was really happy we made her dinner on her birthday Kensy likes his wine

Last weekend I went down to Punta Banda, Mexico. I guess you already know that from the video I posted. That was the primary output of the weekend, I suppose. But it was also fantastic to get to spend some time with Josh and Aaron. Aaron lives down there and works for the organic produce distributor his Aunt and Uncle own.

The patio

We had a great time. There was some drinking, there was some cooking, there was some visiting of amazing taquerias. The taqueria down there is a totally different experience. You order things directly from the guy at the grill, and he whips tacos together like lightning. You can order a bunch and then sit and eat, but a lot of people just stand there, ordering and eating things as they feel. It’s fast enough you don’t need to plan ahead.

And I should mention the content, which is delicious cilantro and onions and salsa and chicken on tasty, chewy grilled corn tortillas. We walked past a tortilleria in the market, and it was amazing! These women were shepherding bits of dough into this amazing greasy black Rube Goldberg machine that pressed them into perfect circles, send them along a conveyor belt, dropped them onto a big round griddle, which rotated around to a contraption that flipped them.

The tortillas were coming off so fresh and fragrant and toasty and puffy. Man. I really need to get back into making tortillas. I feel like there is so much more art for me to master.

Aaron captures his destruction for posterity

The one other thing I want to mention is the dinner co-op I am starting. I think I blogged about it a few weeks ago, but this week Kensy and Kaya signed on emotionally to support the idea, and it was off like a flash. The three of us ate on Tuesday (stir fry!) and we decided to do it every Tuesday and Thursday. Last night we had indian at my place. Kensy and I cooked up Aloo Saag and Chana Masala, and invited a handful of hillcrest people who we know. I was really excited that my friend Matthew who I know through the women’s center came and brought his roommates. They were totally fun to meet.

Most of the crowd for dinner co-op

The food and camraderie was great, as was the ensuing debauchery and the going out and dancing and the coming home at 2am to an enormous pile of dishes. But one of the nicest moments of the evening for me was talking to Matthew about the art project I’m working on. I’ve been going through some rough emotional spots for the last month or two. One of my friendships which is one of the most important to me in the world has been a real struggle recently, for a ton of tough reasons. And my approach to these things is really to try to understand them deeply and to explore my thoughts and emotions until I feel like I can see a clear picture. But for some reason in this case that’s been super hard. So it’s been a struggle.

But I had a totally cathartic moment on Thursday. Something changed in me, and I felt like all the sudden, instead of sinking I was heading up to the surface for air. And I don’t think I’m quite at the point where I’m taking in that first big gulp of breath, but the feeling of moving up is wonderful. And I think expressing where I’m at through art is going to be really therapeutic. And Matthew was really supportive of that, and his support meant a lot a lot to me.

Thanksgiving '06 Plus 050

Also, my dad gives good advice about love.